Surrender

I woke up,
Solitary,
In a lazy afternoon-
With the rain pouring down the tin roof
The wind, mischievously,
Flicking through my open diary:
And my second life:
Fidgeting
Hesitating
And then blushing, oblivious-
At the sudden supply of oxygen.

I woke up-
Solitary,
And sat-
Thinking about useless things,
Nostalgic about never happened relationships
Consoling,
Promising…………….
That made no sense

But strangely
I never felt a moment of loneliness
And could easily ignore the telephone, the fax,
The cat, the radio, the fever…

I sat solitary,
And stared:
As the rain blatantly touched my diary
Trying to persuade,
And rummaged wildly
For something between the lines.
Then enervated,
Smacked me left and right
And I broke into inconsolable tears
Of an emotion, I cannot explain.

And I sat solitary,
Feeling stupid.
As to how I came to know:
In the most insignificant way-
That I loved you.