I had a nightmare. When I talked about it, it somehow didn't seem so bad to people. But I guess it's all subjective. If you were in my shoes and were a nervous wreck like me,  couldn't fill a glass of water from the tap without spilling it, and felt bad about it, terribly sloppy about yourself, to the point that it really affected you, to the point that it made you deduce terrible things about why things never worked in your life, and about why things rather worked in other people's lives, maybe you would understand what I mean when I say I had a terrible, terrible nightmare.