Mind this is a grad-school post.

It feels I have been away for quite a bit from writing.

Everything feels so daunting. I feel like I am hanging somewhere in lithosphere, totally lost. I can't feel a ground under my feet. And I have seen things getting worse. Worse and worse things have happened to people around me, and things can not only get better sometimes, but worse. Worse things can keep happening. Things get worse. Worse things have happened. Moment when you feel worse things can happen - that's worse than the worse thing actually happening.

Like when you turn twenty-eight. Worse than turning thirty.