Displacement

I am so stressed out. Mum says you can only do what you can do and leave the rest to destiny and good things will happen finally. But that's what mum says. But I hope she's right this time too.

I have moved so much. It's been such an enormous displacement since August last year, emotionally. Life away from your home country strips you off until you are left with the barest essentials. I have made amazing friends, I have had horrible breakdowns. So unpredictably. I have never before experienced the intensities of life before as much as I have here, now.

Distance is strange, wonderful, distressing. Distance confounds you, confuses you, amazes you, amuses you. Like, does, in a way, economic independence. 

It is appalling how so many things change when you earn a lot of money. 

Wow, so many dislocations in less than a year. I have to stare long at each displaced piece and make sense out of it.